This is why I believe

I wasn’t looking for God—I was drowning. I had never reached out to him or been a believer.

Depression. Addiction. Emptiness. I had hit rock bottom, and the weight of it all felt unbearable. I wanted my life to end. I remember one night in particular in my room where I couldn’t take it anymore.

Through tears, pain, and desperation, I cried out into the darkness— “Please make it stop.”

The one who answered was not who I expected.

What happened next changed my life forever.

That night, everything shifted. Out of nowhere, my phone in hand, started showing me video after video about Jesus—one after another, like it was on purpose. These were things never on my feed before. These weren’t just random videos. Every single one felt like it was speaking directly to me. At first, I scoffed and got aggravated. Why was I seeing all this stuff?

Then suddenly, I was filled with an overpowering feeling I still can’t explain. I felt the presence of what I can only describe as the Holy Spirit.

I started crying, not from pain this time, but from the overwhelming feeling of acceptance and love that Jesus called to me. It was like a heavy weight I had been carrying for years suddenly lifted. I didn’t realize it right then, but the Holy Spirit was meeting me right where I was—in all my mess and brokenness.

That night, I gave my life to Jesus Christ. Not because I had it all together, but because I was finally to let go and let Him in.

I had searched my whole life up until then for happiness. Reaching for alcohol, partying, wealth, and every sin imaginable to fill the void. I had finally realized that none of those things would ever be enough, that Jesus was all I needed.

I didn’t know much about the Bible, and I definitely wasn’t living my life for God.

I still have struggles, I still have hardship, and I still have a lot of healing to do. The difference now is that I’m not doing it alone.

Day by day, Jesus gave my strength as I learned to lean on Him and trust in Him. I let go of the things that were killing me. He walked me through the change of sobriety. He gave me peace in the middle of anxiety. He started showing me who I really was—someone loved.

Now, almost two years sober, I can say without a doubt: Jesus saved my life.

What I thought was the end, turned out to be the beginning. I’ve gone from numb and hopeless to alive and free. And I know He didn’t just do this for me—He wants to do it for you too.

If you’re reading this and you feel lost, broken, or too far gone—please hear me:

You are not alone.

I was where you are. I know what it’s like to feel like there’s no way out. But I’’m here to tell you, there is.

Jesus is not waiting for you to clean yourself up. He’s ready to meet you right where you are, just like He did with me. Whether you’re struggling with addiction, depression, shame, discrimination, or just an emptiness you can’t explain—He sees you. And He’s calling you.

This brand DNBA was born from that moment. It’s not about fashion—it’s about hope through Christ. It’s about stories like mine, and stories like yours.

Do Not Be Afraid. Let Him in.

And when you’re ready, share your story too—because your testimony might be the one that sets someone else free and leads them on their walk with the Lord.